If, after all my lessons, you are still cutting your body (if you have never read my articles about self-abuse, you can find them on my website) I must teach you how to resist and never do what you know you shall not do.
You must control your behavior.
So, I showed you the real meaning of self-abuse is: you are being dominated by the wild part of your conscience, which is evil, violent and cruel.
This is your primitive conscience that did not transform through consciousness like your human conscience.
This is a very dangerous part of your psyche and is very big and strong.
It constantly tries to dominate your human conscience and control your behavior.
When you hurt your own body, you are not doing something that pleases you, the human being, but what pleases the cruel monster, the anti-conscience, which is your human conscience's worse enemy.
This means that you must disagree with this tendency.
You have to understand logically that the pleasure you derive from cutting your own body is crazy and that the fact that you cause wounds in your own body is crazy as well.
This is insanity: the craziness hidden in the wild part of your psychic sphere that invaded the human part of your conscience.
This crazy content causes this absurd behavior.
Now, if you are following my explanations, it is logical to conclude that you are a slave of your wild side, since you do things that please it, while you suffer as a human being.
You suffer not only when you hurt yourself, but also because you know that this is crazy and you have to stop doing it, however you cannot stop.
You are a big victim of your wild psyche! You have to do something about this.
If you let this monster continue controlling you, it will drive you to suicide in the end, even though you don't agree now that you have a suicidal tendency.
Please read my article entitled "The Suicidal Tendency of Cutting," if you haven't done so yet, so that you may understand what a suicidal tendency indicates and how you can fight it.
If you understand that you are being a victim and that you have to stop doing what your enemy wants, you are going to become very strong and resist against this tendency.
You'll never again do it, no matter what.
If you have a panic attack, just wait until it passes.
Don't do anything.
You won't die.
However, if you continue cutting your body, you will die because the anti-conscience is not going to stop torturing you.
If you stop doing it and resist the tendency to cut your body until it disappears, you will live and live abundantly, in order to save this world from terror and violence with your work and your example of sensitivity, goodness and courage.
This tendency will really disappear if you are resistant and never cut your body again, no matter what.
Well, if you are intelligent you must have understood that what you are doing is a form of suicide, so you must understand as well that if you don't stop it, it really will kill you.
I hope I succeeded in frightening you.
If you cannot stop cutting your body alone because you really don't have the necessary resistance, accept help from the doctors that you hate.
You may hate them, but they know how to help you stop having this behavior.
You will have to bear them only for a short period of time.
When you overcome this problem, you will never have to see them again.
If, however, you really cannot bear these doctors, then be resistant! I fought against schizophrenia alone, obeying the directions I was receiving in dreams and signs from the unconscious.
I won the battle thanks to obedience and my resistance.
Follow my example!